so there i was....

 {spitting on my fish trying to keep it alive...}

what? oh sorry, wrong line  lol

so no really

 there i was,

....standing in the basement in my winter boots.

watching the water in the basement drain NOT go down.

...on stand-by, waiting to alert josh,

 (who was outside in the freezing temperatures roto-rooter-ing the sewer line to no avail)

to any changes in the situation.

zoning out.

 half way listening to the christmas music emanating from the computer.

looking but not really seeing the slideshow screensaver.

when suddenly, some combination of music & image serving to reach through the fog & wake me up... .

and as i see the photos slowly pan, zoom & fade across the screen.

 photos from the past year

unfiltered by which ones were favorites,

 the program selecting them truely at random,

goofy postures & closed eyes notwithstanding....i realize how lucky i am.

blessed.

 to be here, to love & be loved, to have family & friends.

to have all this...

  everything i have ever dreamed of & so much more that i could not have even imagined in my wildest dreams.

happy holidays.