Monday, December 14, 2009

so there i was....

 {spitting on my fish trying to keep it alive...}
what? oh sorry, wrong line  lol
so no really
 there i was,
....standing in the basement in my winter boots.
watching the water in the basement drain NOT go down.
...on stand-by, waiting to alert josh,
 (who was outside in the freezing temperatures roto-rooter-ing the sewer line to no avail)
to any changes in the situation.

zoning out.

 half way listening to the christmas music emanating from the computer.
looking but not really seeing the slideshow screensaver.
when suddenly, some combination of music & image serving to reach through the fog & wake me up... .
and as i see the photos slowly pan, zoom & fade across the screen.
 photos from the past year
unfiltered by which ones were favorites,
 the program selecting them truely at random,
goofy postures & closed eyes notwithstanding....i realize how lucky i am.
blessed.
 to be here, to love & be loved, to have family & friends.
to have all this...
  everything i have ever dreamed of & so much more that i could not have even imagined in my wildest dreams.
happy holidays.


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Thursday, December 3, 2009

it snows......

i love the quality of light in the house when it's snowing & there is snow on the ground.
it's almost magical...
there's something about the way it comes in.
there's a glow to it
& the way it changes the colors...
it makes you ::look:: not just see.

it fills me with a quiet sense of right-ness. it conjures images of homemade bread, bean soup &huddling around the woodstove, arms outstretched & fingers splayed, soaking in the heat.

feelings of warm comfort.
scarves, mittens & blankets on the couch...warm & snuggly.

of the conspiritorial whispering of holiday secrets.

of board games with the family on long, dark evenings.
laughing together...passing the time.


of midnight trysts in the gently falling snow, walking together hand in mittened hand.


.happy winter.

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